awkward moment

bud#1: "hey bud, long time no see."

bud#2: "..."

uh oh, awkward ...

Sometimes I find that the music I listen to while drawing has an impact on the drawing.

I was listening to this song: "Ouroboros"




It appears to me
quoting alarms
(The) guillotine smirks
In your house I smothered
Sight unseen
Sworn to harm
Ground to a powder
And soaked through the board
Don’t you ever, ever, ever trust my mercy
Don’t you ever, ever, ever trust my mercy
When will you flirt with all that’s burning
Keep them safe and by your side
Of all that’s left
A lucid home
Anecdote settles
In the smear of this corpse
If the larvae speaks
Ask where to go
They mount the maker
With a sulphur in fume
Don’t you ever, ever, ever trust my mercy
Don’t you ever, ever, ever trust my mercy
When will you flirt with all that’s burning
Keep them safe and by your side
Of all the warnings that you gave me
With all components in the fault
Have you ever heard me scraping it will be hard to hold
Don’t you ever, ever, ever trust my mercy
Don’t you ever, ever, ever trust my mercy
When will you flirt with all that’s burning
Keep them safe and by your side
Of all the warnings that you gave me
With all components in the fault
Have you ever heard me scraping it will be hard to hold
All I hear mending the gap
fall in here might not make it back
Call that someone may they hear you
Take me with you It’s not safe in here
And all you ask is why, why, why
And all you ask is why I’m certain
you’re holding on
mirror floats to the surface [holding on]
Of all the warnings that you gave me
With all components in the fault
Have you ever heard me scraping it will be hard to hold
Of all the warnings that you gave me
With all components in the fault
Have you ever heard me scraping it will be hard to hold
They lost the presence they were holding
Looks like the tenants flickered off
If the cell that holds me breaks me
It’ll be hard to hold




have a nice day

tired

i realized something today.
i dont cope well with pressure.
im supposed to be running a winter camp this year.
camp? me? running?
i'm a techie i sit behind a desk or work behind the curtains.
i'm not a people person, but.
idk.

when the pressure hits, i just want to sleep.
forget about everything and just sleep.

hm...
2 1/2 weeks...
what im I doing?
what im I supposed to do?

dont fuck this up marten.

peace
love
sleep

have a nice day.



(hmm. thanks for listening)
(i miss you, alot)

im not strong, but you make me feel strong.
im not brave, but you make me feel brave.
im not warm, but you make me want to be.

love you.

this song reminds me of you.

smell like dog

hmm were to start?

well lets see...
um I was locked out of my house today, from about 1pm~ till 4pm.
that was....
not as fun as it doesn't sound.
after about an hour of trying to pick the lock based on knowledge gained from youtube,
i gave up and decided to take a nap on a sofa that we have out side.
my dog later came to join me.
now i smell.

end.







have a nice day.
(memo to self, buy lock picking kit. metal scrap wires ineffective)

to infinity....

miss the one that i love alot

Warm sun, feed me up and I'm leery loaded up
Loathing for a change
And I slip some boil away
Swallowed followed, heavy about everything
But my love

Swallowed sorrowed
I'm with everyone and yet not just wanted
to be myself
hey you said that you would love to try some
hey you said you would love to die some
in the middle of a worm on a fish hook
you're the wave you're the wave you're the wave


Swallowed borrowed
Heavy about everything
But my love
Swallowed hollowed
Sharp about everyone
But yourself
Swallowed oh no
I'm with every one and yet not
I'm with everyone and you're not
I'm on everyone and yet
Piss on self-esteem
Forward Busted knee
Sick head
Blackened lungs
And I'm a simple selfish son


Swallowed followed
Swallowed oh no
I'm with everyone and yet not
Got to get away from here
I miss the one that I love a lot
I miss the one that I love a lot

-

have a nice day

burns

its amazing how time seems to slip away at times.
or even stranger how it freezes and doesn't want to move at all.

hmm...
my face hurts.

"Satellite Skin" - Modest Mouse

If you break these moth wing feelings
Powdering dust on your fingers
We know we're not praying we're kneeling
Hard enough just to say you believe them
Well how the heck did you think you could beat them
At the same time that you're trying to be them
Hard enough just to say you don't need it when they
Took it up while you were still eating
Well satellite, satellite skin

Just enough just to say you don't mean it
Well, when everybody's willing to listen
Oh satellite, satellite skin
You can say what you want you're forgiven
Well happy fucking congratulations
Well everyone, everyone wins
Just like being in my own solar system
Doing good things but then totally eclipse them
Oh what's the use, oh what the hell
(Lost before we had a cause, had a cause)

If you break these moth wing feelings
Butterfly knives in the ceiling
Well everyone, everyone's waiting
Detachments get praised and completed
You can say what you want and not mean it
When no one really seems to be waiting
If you sweep up this mess I've created
Nothing's left to show I existed
Except satellite, satellite skin

Asking for a question
Was it easier said than was actually done?
Do you even believe that
Do you even believe that there's a race to be won?

If you break these moth wing feelings
I have seen it all because satellite skin
Over innocent eyes
I'd like to know these morbid opinions
Get stacked in all those usual avoided spots
Just to tell you how I could not have seen
Through to the gist of those unhappy
Happy accidents

have a nice day

23

hmm, in about a month im gonna be 23...

hmm...

im not sure how i feel about that.

sometimes i think about friends that are the same age as me.

they are in their senior year of college or already done and working on their jobs.

but where am i at?

lets see i've done a semester of college....

and would have been kicked out if i didnt bring my grades up.

...

hm...

well..

i dont know.

well enjoy some nice music by the Murphy's

In the town of Milton one
Brian Flannigan battered away till his money was spent
Then he hit a big one and felt like a man again,
Bought a three decker with two floors for rent

He threw a big party for friends
And relations at a grand old place called Florian Hall
And if you'll just listen I'll make your eyes glisten
To the rows and the ructions of Flannigan's ball.

[Chorus:]
Six long months I spent in quincy,
Six long months doing nothing at all,
Six long months I spent in quincy
Learning to dance for Flannigan's ball
I stepped out and I stepped in again,
I stepped out and I stepped in again,
I stepped out and I stepped in again
Learning to dance for Flannigan's ball.

Free beer on tap and wine for the ladies,
Ziti and sauce for mark porzio
There were faheys and bradys,
Mcauliffes and daleys courtin the girls and dancing away.

Brian tully sang out in his finest form,
The patron's responded and I lead em all
I'd spent 6 months at Forbes Academy
Learning to dance for Flannigan's ball

[Chorus]

The boys were hammered the girls were hearty
Dancing around in couples and groups
An accident happened you Dennis Flemming
Put his right leg through miss Finneran's hoops

This gal she fainted and cried bloody murder,
Called for her sons and gathered them all,
Christopher swore he'd go no further
Till he had revenge at Flannigan's ball

[Chorus]

In the midst of the melee
Miss Collins fainted her cheeks by now were as red as a rose
Some of the boys declared she was plastered
Had a small drop to much I suppose

Young Scotty Jenkins so big and able
Saw his fair colleen stretched by the wall
Tore the left leg from under the table
And smashed all the dishes at Flannigan's ball

Boy oh boy now this was a rumble myself
Took a lick from mean Ricky Green
But I soon replied to that fine introduction
And gave him a terrible kick in the spleen

Talent the piper nearly got strangled,
They squeezed on his bellows, chanters and all,
The girls in the middle nearly got trampled
And that put an end to Flannigan's ball

yey for subways with wifi

have a nice day.

bad dream

last night I had this dream:

I'm sitting with someone whom I love very much.

my arms are around her.

we are watching a movie, I dont remember what the movie was, just that the tv was on and that's what we were focusing on.

the movie ends, I turn to her.

she looks into my eyes, smiles.

i smile back.

and in with a violent kick, I wake up.

i'm at my computer, everything is dark.

the only light coming from the screen of my computer.

I look up at the screen and a video is playing of an old memory of the two of us.

"she's not here anymore" I think to myself.

then I wake out of the dream.

I still feel kinda shaken up.

be safe.

really.

have a nice day.

eggs

my mind is all over the place today.

well I think it usually is like that.

but today I was thinking about it, and thought.

hmm kinda like scrambled eggs.

it starts out as a whole egg, but then all over the pan.

than back again.

o shoot odu.

but my brain hasnt come back together yet, it's still being swooshed around.

...

in normal news

Warpaint's new album was released last month "The Fool"

it's a good listen though not as refreshing as their first release "Exquisite Corpse"

but anyway this is my favorite song on the album, : "Baby"

Don't you call anybody else baby 'cause I'm your baby still.
It took a long time to make it, but I never changed my mind.
I never tried to fake it, never drew a line.

Don't you call anybody else baby 'cause I'm your baby still.
Took a long time to make it, but I never changed my mind.

You speak your fears, thinking in circles and checking what mirrors don't see.
You live your life like a page from the book of my fantasy.
I write of you.

You speak your fear, thinking in circles and checking what mirrors don't see.
You live your life like a page from the book of my fantasy.

Don't you call anybody else baby.

have a nice day

some thoughts

having a person in your life is an interesting thing.

you feel happy and safe, but at the same time you worry and feel sad when they are away.

you try to follow what you think is right, but it turns out most of the time you're just thinking about yourself.

then sometimes the other feels hurt, you dont understand why.

but then it hits you.

me.

it seems easy to care and love some one.

until you really try to.

then you notice how much of your life is centered around you.

how, when you really think about it.

im just trying to please me, is the reality.

but you still have that person to come back to.

which makes it kinda nice.

really nice.

but i think its a good thing.

to try and put another before yourself.

cause when she's happy I feel happy.

and im pretty sure thats a good thing.

well have some nice dreams, or lunch, or whatever it is you were up to when you read this.

I dont know why, but this song was playing in my head today.

have a nice day

me tired

I was in korea for a month and came back on nov 7.

my sleep pattern hasn't normalized since.

.....buuuuurghft

the last 2 nights i only got 3-4 hrs of sleep.

hmmm, I want to goto sleep right now but im afraid that i'll wake up at 11pm or something and wont be able to go back to sleep.

haha, my dad was just trying to explain the expression "when hell freezes over" to my mom.

mom: what? hell freeze?

dad: hell. its hot... so... when it freezes...

mom: ...

dad: its just a way of saying that something will probably never happen, like "when pigs fly"

mom: pigs? ... fly? ... ...

dad: ...

mom: ..?

dad: im gonna go return those movies we rented.

end.

this has been a true story from the ever exciting and adventurous life of me.

have a nice day

laggg

hmm,

I went to sleep at 6am and woke up at 6pm.....

hmm

i dont think i've ever slept that long.

and i dont really feel refreshed.

but anyway, I just did a quick doodle

hmm.

i need a job :(

or free money, that would be nice

have a nice day

hey its been awhile

hmm, I was thinking today.

this blog really has no point.

no real reason to be.

but thats ok, i made this blog for me.

anyway,

hmm.

maybe i'll just post a song that I like,

yeah that sounds good.

The Arcade Fire - In The Backseat

I like the peace
in the backseat,
I don't have to drive,
I don't have to speak,
I can watch the country side,
and I can fall asleep.

My family tree's
losing all its leaves,
crashing towards the driver's seat,
the lightning bolt made enough heat
to melt the street beneath your feet.

Alice died
in the night,
I've been learning to drive.
My whole life,
I've been learning.

I like the peace
in the backseat,
I don't have to drive,
I don't have to speak,
I can watch the country side

Alice died
in the night,
I've been learning to drive.
My whole life,
I've been learn----Oh....

I really want to try and play this song live.

well I guess its kinda a sad song.

about a child who just wants to be a kid, not to worry about the would and just enjoy life.

but things dont go easy for the child, the mother dies and the child is left to learn about life on her own.

but its has so much power and emotion. the strings crying in the background, and singer's voice.

everything about this song, just fits.

well

have a nice week.

dear hair

dear hair

we had a good run,

but now it seems your time is done.

no more swooshing and large dosages of conditioner.

no more will you be by my side, to look preoccupied and pass awkward times.

i miss you.

but hey, maybe well meet again, sometime soon.

a good read

well I dont really read books.

The closest thing would be graphic novels or comics/manga.

For some reason I get lost in all of the text.

But I do really enjoy a good movie or series.

I was think it about today, the feeling that im left with when the credits roll.

its a feeling of both satisfaction and wonder or curiosity.

Its also a nice feeling to find someone to whom you can relate to, even if they're only real in an unreal world.

Maybe thats the magic of it.

someone like you, but at the same times someone that will never exist.

someone that you can never have a real conversation with, or share a pizza with.

they are there, and I am here.

A disconnected connection.

you wonder what their life is like outside of the time you see them on screen.

but whats the point, they dont exist.

hmm.

I started watching a tv series about a week ago.

and every time I watch an episode im left with that feeling.

hmm...

o if you were wondering the tv series is "Dead Like Me"

check it out, its cool.

it makes you think, well it makes me think.

well anyways

have a nice day

drink?

I was fixing a computer for a non english speaking family.

the mother asks; "would you like something to drink? tenchi cha? coffee?"

me; "no thank you, water is fine."

I go back to work.

the water is served.

hmm... it's hot.

....

. and well

that was it .

hot water.

hmm, not much of a story.

yeah, i know.

good night.

have a nice day

reloading...

hmm,

my brain power is still not 100%

and my stomach feels smaller :(

and im really hungry, but all I can eat is soup :( :(

hmm...

I was watching "Frozen" today.

it was entertaining, but for a survival movie the characters had zero survival skills.

or any sense of resourcefulness at all. which made the movie kinda hard to watch.

but anyway, here's a trailer if you like more info

i guess thats it for today.

have a nice day

day4

hmm.

my body is aching.

and is very sleepy.

i feel like a zombie.

a tired zombie.

that can't eat cause all the other zombies already ate everything.

so I just walk around.

and sleep.

3 more days.

please hurry.

have a nice day.

enjoy your food for me.

day2

hmm, its not that im hungry.

but I just want some food.

food is so nice.

it makes the world a happier place.

i miss you food.

-

marten

have a nice day.

no food for 7days

my fast started 2hrs ago.

im already hungry.

not a good sign.

this is gonna be a long week.

hace a nice day.

Heralder

Nothing like some viking/pagan metal to start my sunday :)





From beyond a twilight horizon where mountains were covered with snow,
Once a man on a horse came the way,
On an early autumnal morning, when dew lay chill on the ground,
And the sun's first rays heralded the day,
To rest at last after riding for more than three days and nights,
Through the woods and across the shallow landscapes,
To finally reach the village the rumours where talking about,
And where the heathen king lived for many years.

His golden armour was shining by the light of awakening sun,
And in his hand he held a bronzen shield
On which the runes all were written by a blacksmith of wisdom great,
To guide him on his way so long.
He had come to bring the message the king has given to him,
To be conveyed into all heathen countries,
And he told about their brethern, overtaken by christian men,
Now punished by the cross and christian laws.

So the man dismounted and his horse was taken by it's bridle to be brought into the stabling.
Meanwhile he was lead to the hall where the king sat on his greatseat.
Forthwith he told him the reasons for his coming,
And withing a few minutes all people were gathered by the king's mighty voice.
So he rose on his feet and began to speak about the greatest heathen host ever see,
Passing towards their brethern land....

After three days and nights of riding the frontier they finally reached,
With their hearths wholly determined,
And encountered the christian church in their once sacred woods
As the chaplain just chimed the bell.
At once they put the spurs in their horses,
Hearths were filled with rage and hate,
And in their hands they held the torches,
When Odhinn was amongst and Tyr was leading their hearts
Into a world of anciest mysteries....

The night the longswords where grinded
And the shields were forged in blood,
By the hands of most dextrous blacksmiths,
And sacrifices were given to the Goddesses and the Gods,
In the woods by the mighty tree,
Known in heathen kingdoms as the mighty Irminsul,
That was built as an immense landmark
Of heathen pride and honour
And a symbol of what shall be....

have a nice day

spoon of death

hmm..
was eating noodles.

after I finished I noticed that my lip was hurting.
I put a napkin in my mouth and, blood.

huh...

I think my spoon cut me.

weird.

Dear Spoon,

I would like to think it was an accident that you cut me.
I mean, I've always been good to you, so I dont see why you would do this intentionally.

Is it because I have been seeing fork more than you this past week?

Remember the week before? When we had ice cream and cake for breakfast.
Good times, right?

Well anyway, I hope I dont bleed to death, that would be embarrassing.

I forgive you.

- marten

long gone mexico

made a new song today

"long gone mexico"

hmm, lets see.

it's an instrumental, just guitars and some sound effects.

hmm, I have this thing that when ever I read stories or listen to stories or hear music alot of times I start to see images of what it is I feel from the text or song.

I visualize.. i guess..

so in this one, the feeling or image I got from it was a guy on a raft going along a river, and eventually the river turns into a waterfall.

um why mexico?

i dont know,

well I've never been before, but I have mexican blood in me.

so maybe it's like i've been living so far but still havent found my "home"

something like that, maybe

i dont know, hope you enjoy it though.

(songs are on the right side on the page under the "Marten's Music Box" tab.

have a nice day.

not a morning person

not a morning person

my eyes feel heavy.

fingers numb.

my mouth bleeding.

I bit my tounge.

half-baked, hungover.

no just tired.

need to sleep more.

sweet dreams

zzz

have a nice labor day

Warpaint!!

Warpaint is releasing their first full length album "The Fool"

Cant wait, release date: Oct 25 2010

Until then this is a song from their EP "Exquisite Corpse"

Beetles (Acoustic)

have a nice day

someday

I realized that i have alot of emotions bottled up inside.

not just like anger, sadness, frustration, but happiness as well.

I thought of it like a old rickety dam or a bottle of spirit being shaken up.

when seal breaks, i dont know what to do.

the emotions erupt and spray all over the place.

unable to control.

I feel slightly lost.

like a stray dog trying to find his way home.

but this seems to only last a moment.

but in that moment its kinda nice.

sometimes when I think I have understanding of myself something new seems to pop in and surprise me.

which I think is a good thing.

I remember a quote.

Something like "its a great thing when you realize you still have the ability to surprise yourself."

maybe its not that drastic but its kinda nice.

well i thought i would add another quote from the same movie.

i like it alot it might be in my top 3 movies.

American Beauty.

"I had always heard your entire life flashes in front of your eyes the second before you die. First of all, that one second isn't a second at all, it stretches on forever, like an ocean of time... For me, it was lying on my back at Boy Scout camp, watching falling stars... And yellow leaves, from the maple trees, that lined our street... Or my grandmother's hands, and the way her skin seemed like paper... And the first time I saw my cousin Tony's brand new Firebird... And Janie... And Janie... And... Carolyn. I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me... but it's hard to stay mad, when there's so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once, and it's too much, my heart fills up like a balloon that's about to burst... And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it, and then it flows through me like rain and I can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life... You have no idea what I'm talking about, I'm sure. But don't worry... you will someday. "

have a nice day.

dear ankles.

dear ankles, please dont explode.

i would like to walk, when i get old.

the poem of the ankle(s) - marten hernandez

have a nice day

gninnur

went running with kook.

got owned.

the end.

have a nice day.

lobster

The past is a gaping hole.

You try to run from it, but the more you run, the deeper it grows behind you, its edges yawning at your heels.

Your only chance is to turn around and face it.

But it's like looking down into the grave of your love, or kissing the mouth of a gun, a bullet trembling in its dark nest, ready to blow your head off.
- Max Payne 2

Hmm...

it amazes me sometimes how interesting people are.

in a good way.

they are so complex and different.

or like when someone that you know surprises you and you find a neat aspect of them that you didnt know.

it makes me :)

Robbie the giant lobster strikes again.

enjoy the music

have a nice day.

spatula

hmm..

so apparently i weigh 200lbs

even i was like whoa, when did that happen ?.?

hmm...

...

maybe physical activity is something I should pursue.

....

maybe...

anyway

in other news, i was almost hit by a car today.

but instead of my reaction being like, OMGGGG!!!

it was more like, hmm... that was weird

well my car was almost hit by another car, as apposed to a car almost hitting my body.

and yes, to answer the thought that may have popped into your head;

it was a woman.

"no one panic, i have a spatula."

have a nice day.

geezer

dear old man, whats wrong with your eyes.

wrong my boy? there's nothing wrong.

they've seen alot and now they rot, wither and burn away.

they bleed and puss, ooze and fuss.

but not more shall they say, look that way, look this way.

a spoon a spoon is all it took, and i plucked my sight away.

have a nice day

zombies

I had this thought for sometime now.
but why are guys/men/dudes so fascinated by zombies.
well its pretty simple when you think about it.
Guys like guns.
Technically they are already dead, so your not really killing them anyway.
It is 100% justifiable.
"If i dont blow that zombie away, it will eat my brains."

in honor of this revelation i made a quick doodle.





have a nice day

free...

I dropped out of school today.
I feel slightly refreshed.
I want to try and pursue something that im actually interested in.
I was thinking either Culinary (like in the pastry area) or music production.
hmm, but right now im in debt :(
but it feels good to be out.

i smell frustration

so....
my head is going to explode.
well thats what it feels like.
i'm so pissed, im not even angry.
im just blaaaa, like "well this sucks", blaaaargh
i want to goto sleep for the rest of today.

.....sorry for whining, I wrote some stuff here but decided to delete it.

if you are also having a bad day.
listen to some music, it helps.


New Favorite - Alison Krauss

frozen thumbs

Tom Thumb, frozen dinner isle.
Man shouts from behind.
"Alright, hair, man."
Pound it.
Nod of acknowledgment.


- A poem of mutual respect
Marten Hernandez

mando dando

I bought a mandolin a few weeks ago.
its pretty awesome :0

anyway I made my first song using it.
its called epitaph.
There are 2 versions epitaphNV and epitaph
NV = No Voice
and the other version has a poemish this going during the song.

enjerrr
(enjoy)

subtle extremist

my eyes have been feeling very heavy this past week.
I feel tired all day.
I'm waking up around 7-8am.
but when I wake up feel like I havnt had any sleep at all.
so this made me think. Why?
and I came to the conclusion:
I'm a subtle extremist.
I find that what ever I do, I do with all my being.
And when I'm given a job/responsibility that is over my ability.
I burn out really quick and crash like a great blue whale falling from the sky.
*splat
but most of this is all mental.
I find that there are different types of extremists.

The Emotional Extremists:
People who depending on their mood are either:
On cloud nine/hallucinogens or in the bottom depths of hell, and they make sure that the entire world around them is aware of this.

The Physchical Extremists:
Go all out all physically.
While playing sports, the soccer field to them is not a green box filled with friends and loved ones. But a war zone or death and blood, and the only way to survive is kill or be killed.

The Intellectual Extremists:
(I chose the term subtle because you cant really see the brain at work)
The Brain/Mind is going full nitro throttle, or crash and burn 100% of the time.
In this category the mind is either always on or not on at all.
When given a task the IE will focus totally on the task at hand, to the extent that all areas of living are also effected.
During the ON mode, the IE will feel great anxiety and be more easily agitated. The IE has trouble sleeping and organizing thoughts, for the task at hand has taken up a vast majority of the users brain space.
During OFF, the user experiences periods of zero productivity.
The mind has burnt out and needs time to recuperate.
This can last anywhere from days to weeks to months, possibly even years. (depending on the stress level of the task)


well anyway, if your not an extremists that's probably the best.

have a good day

taco bell.......why......

I was at a taco bell today for the first time in about 2 years.
Alot has changed.
They no longer sell Baja Chalupas.
the "fire" salsa is also no more.
a sad day indeed.


well


have


er


good



day

Doesn't Make it Alright

Billy and his imaginary friend







The Special - Doesn't Make it Alright

Just because you're nobody
It doesn't mean that you're no good
Just because there's a reason
It doesn't mean it's understood

It doesn't make it alright
It doesn't make it alright
It's the worst excuse in the world
And it, it doesn't make it alright

Some people think they're really clever
To smash your head against the wall
Then they say "you got it my way"
They really think they know it all

It doesn't make it alright
It doesn't make it alright
It's the worst excuse in the world
And it, it doesn't make it alright

Just because you're a black boy
Just because you're a white
It doesn't mean you've got to hate him
It doesn't mean you've got to fight

It doesn't make it alright
It doesn't make it alright
It's the worst excuse in the world
And it, it doesn't make it alright

Just because you're nobody!

dearest june 1st,

i woke up around 8am a few days ago.
It was kinda interesting.
i had, like to much time.
I did my school stuff and had nothing to do..

today I had the awesome idea of riding a bike in my back yard.
that was fun.
i also realized that I currently have about 2mins of physical stamina.
thats bad... fyi
so then I took a shower.
I found a bottle that said bubble bath gel.
that was disappointing.
nothing like the image that comes to mind when someone says,
"bubble bath"
more like.....
well alot of things that dont live up to the expectations created in my brain/head/mind/inside of face place.


anyway, thats enough excitement for one post.

have a good (_____)

bang bang

bang bang

ya know some old people are pretty cool

so.. I was in nyc, this weekend attending a seminar for llm satellite churches.
not sure how I feel about it. jin sung nim, gave a really good talk at the end, about true children, which was really good. but the rest...
my brain kinda turned off around lunch time of the 2nd day, I dont do well in meetings, or places were people are talking for long durations of time.

but anyway..
this is one thing I thought was interesting enough to post up here.
I was eating lunch at llm and didnt want to eat standing, so I went to a couch where an old japanese woman was sitting. across from her was an american member. I kinda just sat and listened to their conversation. Apparently the japanese woman was one of the first group of missionary's sent to america. She told a story of how while at a certain location all she and the other missionary's had to eat, was the edges of bread that were thrown away daily at a local bakery and jam made from juice powder, water and flour. for 3 years thats all they ate. breakfast, lunch, dinner. the shit food, made her really sick, and her health was terrible after she finished the her mission. She had a son sometime after who was born mentally handicap due to the mothers poor health condition. the son later died at age 15.
but during this whole time the woman seemed at peace with everything. no hate, no resentment, no complaining.
I was amazed, I have so much respect for this woman whos name I dont even remember, but I felt more close to her than I do my own grandparents.
do I enjoy that these things happen, not at all. but the reason I wanted to write about her was because of her amazing attitude. tons of bad stuff happens to you and instead of being bitter, you are content and at peace. thats awesome.
thanks old japanese lady it was an honor to meet you.


....
well i guess thats all i have to say
have a good day.

we used to love ourselves, we used to love one another

I was listening to "great big white world " when I started to draw that.
its a song by Marilyn Manson from the album Mechanical Animals ( which imo, is a really awesome album)



but anyway,
for some reason I feel very refreshed right now.
im not sure why.
in the morning my body felt like I had done some crazy exercises the day before.
but I didnt, I did eat alot at a korean meat bbq.
maybe that was why.

anyway #2
for some reason I have this fear... im not really sure how to describe it, but i'll try.
it's a fear of... something appearing behind me, while im washing my face.....¿?...
....
like if you wake up,
go to the restroom,
turn on faucet,
make cup shaped hand,
fill cup hand with water,
put face in hand,
lift face,
wipe water away from eyes,
and see this standing behind you.
















that'd freak me out.

so...
I've been listening to this all female band, they're pretty great, maybe a new favorite.

this is an acoustic/live version of one of their songs.
Warpaint - Billie Holiday

B.I.L.L.I.E.H.O.L.I.D.A.Y.
B.I.L.L.I.E.H.O.L.I.D.A.Y.
B.I.L.L.I.E.H.O.L.I.D.A.Y.
B.I.L.L.I.E.H.O.L.I.D.A.Y.

As i walk this line, i am bound by the other side
and it's for my heart that i'll live
cause you'll never die.
Well if you want to know me, i'm a war. (B.I.L.L.I.E.H.O.L.I.D.A.Y.)
Come paint. (B.I.L.L.I.E.H.O.L.I.D.A.Y.)

Nothing you can say can tear me away from my guy.
Nothing you can do cause i'm stuck like glue to my guy.
I'm sticking to my guy like a stamp to a letter,
like birds of a feather, we stick together.
I'm telling you from the start, i won't be torn apart from my guy.

Nothing you can buy could make me tell a lie to my guy.
Nothing you could do could make me untrue to my guy.
I gave my guy my word of honor to be faithful and i'm gonna.
You best be believing, I won't be deceiving my guy.

As a matter of opinion I think he's tops.
My opinion is he's the cream of the crop.
As a matter of taste to be exact,
he's my dear as a matter of fact.
No muscle-bound man can tear me away from my guy.

B.I.L.L.I.E.H.O.L.I.D.A.Y.
B.I.L.L.I.E.H.O.L.I.D.A.Y.
B.I.L.L.I.E.H.O.L.I.D.A.Y. (if she wants to go, if he wants to go, if she wants to go, if he wants)
B.I.L.L.I.E.H.O.L.I.D.A.Y. (if he wants to go, if she wants to go, if he wants to go, if she wants)
B.I.L.L.I.E.H.O.L.I.D.A.Y. (if she wants to go, if she wants to go, if she wants to go, if she wants)
B.I.L.L.I.E.H.O.L.I.D.A.Y. (if she wants to go, if she wants to go, if she wants to go, if she wants)
B.I.L.L.I.E.H.O.L.I.D.A.Y.

They currently have one album out, its called "exquisite corpse"
its a 6 track album but every song on there is really good.



have a good day

a formula to experience god

what you need:
headphones
music
chair
some nature

1. find premium sitting environment.
- you want to be as comfortable as possible. If its cold get a jacket, hot find some shade, or just go out at night.
- I like a nice breeze, if you prefer certain weather conditions go out at those times.
2. prep music
- create playlist of some of your favorite music
3. set chair in found premium sitting area.
- if you prefer the ground then go with that.
4. sit
5. turn on music
6. adjust volume to drown out everything else around you.
7. turn off brain
8. enjoy

if I had feet they would walk me places

i think I figured out why I get depressed when I think about school.
In some sense I feel it's a complete waste of time and money.
I feel the system has degraded into a system that no longer wishes to teach but to make $$$.
examps: the major I have chosen is Web Design.
Which, in total credits that actually apply to that class: 30.
But total credit required to get my associate's 68, wtf????
68 - 30= 38 bs classes
???
it makes 0 (zero) sense.
the excuse: "College is meant to create well rounded individuals."
real reason: instead of making thousands (which is already a retarded amount) off of you, we'd like 10 - 100's of thousands.
why: Cause we're a bunch of greedy pricks. yey! :(
I think eventually you'll just be able to buy your credits.
it would save time and maybe lower costs.
so, dear america
thank you for destroying education in general.
and congratulations on making a nation of idiots.

i wish I could turn off my brain for things like this,
then I could just bite the bullet and be blissfully blissful.

but anyway. i'm hungry, my stomach is gurgling.
happy day after mothers day!

this is the song i'll play at your funeral

if at some point in my life I have an archnemesis this is the song i'll play at their funeral.
The Bloodhound Gang - I Hope You Die


on another note some drawings

Gensis:1:32-34
And God Said, "Let there be burgers"
And He took a bite of the greasy new creation.
And God saw that it was good.


the unlikely hero.


(i thought I misspelled funeral up there. but I guess its just one of those words that doesn't sound like it looks. FUN - ER - AL :)


have a good one.

some cheese for your daily bread

haha, man that's some pretty genius wording, if I may say so.
some pics that I did but havnt posted.
enjoy.











have a good week.

unconscience conscience

i had this dream, It's been awhile since i had a very detailed one so I thought id just try and write down everything I remember before i forget.
(its a dream, so things might not make sense)

1st: I'm in side this really big castle. It's a really nice castle, you know the nice ones, big gardens, high towers, lots of rooms. Well im just walking around this castle exploring the place. I walk to a place with people gathering. I dont know how I came to realize it but, they are church members gathering to hear a talk by IJN. I have to use the bathroom, so I leave the room and search for the restroom. I'm walking down a hall way, and I notice Rebecca L. I just say hey, and she says hey. Then I keep walking.
The bathroom seems to be on the 1st floor of this place im in, and it reminds me alot of a high school hallway, lots of teenagers, is loud and busy.
I make it to the restroom, and go to the last stall to the left. I start peeing, and the guy next to me keeps looking over, I look over at him and notice that its not one guy, but 3 black guys shiting and pissing in the same stall. I'm feeling uncomfortable so I want to leave, but Im still peeing. It felt like a 10min piss or something. During this time I get a phone call from my dad asking me somthing on the lines of "have they started the returning of the blessing ring ceremony, I think someone is trying to scam us". The piss keeps going and sometime during this I get bored and decide to pee onto a fire place. It turns out that the fire place was an electric fire place, it blows up and catches fire. Now I have finally finished, but the fireplace is burning. Yoshi O. appears and gets the fire out, it turns out he works for the building as a janitor, he dosnt like his job and tells me about it for a bit.
I start to make my way back to the meeting room. During this I find that this building seems to have 4 different levels.
Bottom level 1st: Restroom/highschool place
2nd: Military training zone.
3rd: Bowling Alley
4th: Gathering room/halls that lead to the outer castle area.
2nd room: Military zone.
As I got to the second level, I opened a door hoping to get back to the room. Inside this room was a war zone, at least thats what it looked and sounded like. Their was gun fire, bombs, shouting, explosions, people crawling under barbwire, drill sargents, army stuff. I thought it was a war at first, but on closer inspection they were all training. A sargent sees me and asks me what im doing so I leave and goto  the next level.
3rd: Bowling Alley:
The bowling alley looks alot like your average alley, except that.... well actually maybe it wasnt a bowling alley. I remember padded flooring and mirrors all around. So maybe it was a gym instead. So I walk into the gym and see the stairs to the next level. Standing infront of these stairs in a guy holding a huge bowlin ball, its like a giant bolder thing. He's standing with the ball in his hand and tells his friend to hold out his hand. This friend guy is standing on the other side of the room. The bowler looks alot like the black guy from The Office, (not Carl, but the one that works in the warehouse). Anyway, he throws the ball, towards the ground, it bounces up, off a wall and lands in the friends hand. The bowler then begins to through the ball to the ground which it then bounces up and goes flying around the room, (like a powerball, or that scene from Men In Black with the green goo, or like Flubber.) I run across the room as fast as I can, I get hit by the bowling ball, fall down, then continue to the exit, I get hit again, but it was right as I went through the door.
4th level gathering room:
I make back to the fourth floor. The halls are busy with kids, I assume these are children of the parents in the gathering room, I see Rebecca L again and say hey. I go to where the room is but no one is their. I continue walking but I cant find anyone. It seems that the castle was overrun, I dont see anyone but there are places that you can tell that someone was killed there, bloodsplatter and body parts. As I walk through the castle I can hear a woman on a loud speaker/PA system, I dont remember what she is saying but it reminded me of somethin you would think you would here in Soviet Russia or a Nazi occupied france.
I try and get to the back of the castle but the door has been sealed, so I try to climb the wall and jump over, it turns out that above the wall is a trap, I fall into the trap which causes the walls around me to come together, squishing me, I die.
But the dream keeps going on.(At this point the world turns into a video game thing, to be exact "Dragon Age") I'm now in a 3rd/birdseye view of whats going on. On the other side of the wall a group of warriors is awaiting an attack. The castle was taken over by monsters/goblin things. The door breaks open and they start to fight. The woman on the PA announces that the leader of the goblins has entered. The warriors go to fight this leader guy, they win.
I wake up.


(i just remembered but at one point in the dream I started taking out my teeth. I was feeling my teeth with my tongue, when one of them fell out. I started touching others and they would also all out when I would touch them.)

yeah, sometimes I think I might suffer from slight paranoia

the 90's the age of one hit wonders.
but at least we had wonders back then, everything is so one week mob mentality now...
some nostalgia for your weekday
Harvey Danger - Flagpole Sitta



i had visions, i was in them
i was looking into the mirror
to see a little bit clearer
rottenness and evil in me
fingertips have memories
mine can't forget the curves of your body
and when i feel a bit naughty
i run it up the flagpole and see who salutes
(but no one ever does)
i'm not sick but i'm not well
and i'm so hot cause i'm in hell
been around the world and found
that only stupid people are breeding
the cretins cloning and feeding
and i don't even own a tv
put me in the hospital for nerves
and then they had to commit me
you told them all i was crazy
they cut off my legs now i'm an amputee, god damn you
i'm not sick but i'm not well
and i'm so hot cause i'm in hell
i'm not sick but i'm not well
and it's a sin to live so well
i wanna publish zines
and rage against machines
i wanna pierce my tongue
it doesn't hurt, it feels fine
the trivial sublime
i'd like to turn off time
and kill my mind
you kill my mind
paranoia paranoia
everybody's coming to get me
just say you never met me
i'm going underground with the moles
hear the voices in my head
i swear to god it sounds like they're snoring
but if you're bored then you're boring
the agony and the irony, they're killing me
i'm not sick but i'm not well
and i'm so hot cause i'm in hell
i'm not sick but i'm not well
and it's a sin to live so well

dear lord, thanks for cookies.

the adventure begins

dear lord, thanks for cookies.
& to the person who 1st made them.




have a nice day.

everything blue

"in the end everything is blue."
I made a new song today, no creepy kids this time.

everything blue (in the end everything is blue) - marten hernandez
Your, color fades.
Dying, with each new day.
Soon, you will change.
Bleach
Bleached to grey.

Cause here.
Everything is blue.
Here.
Everything is you.

So I'll try, to find me.
Could you try, to be you.
Be you.

Cause here.
Everything is blue.
Here.
Everything is you.

some nickel creek for your friday

The Fox - Nickel Creek






just a really quick sketch I did for the song.


for some reason this song makes me feel happy...
I dont know why, maybe it's the mandolin, it has a nice/happyish sound.
have a good weekend.

monday

there's something about mondays that I just hate.
maybe its the fact that  its the beginning of a new week, a new week to be filled with nothing.
is it fear that drives this hate?
fear?
im I afraid of the nothingness that encompasses my daily life?
we exist to feel joy.
how does one find that joy?
read alot?
get smart?
make $$?
hmmm,
the thought "get away" comes to mind.
sounds like good advice.
but were would I go.
with all my trivial duties and obligations, can I ever get away?
I still find comfort in god, maybe I can stay with him fora awhile.
have an address?
i'd like to visit.
the pursuit of human life is to find joy/contentment.
energy cannot be produced with out both subject/object.
some sort of being to reciprocate.
i being human therefor need should reciporcae with other humans.
but for what?
is the whole point of life, death.
then what is the meaning of death?
to live?
i feel like a lab rat in a maze.
I know that for some reason i've been put inside of these zigg zaging walls.
so I could try and find the solution or just , not.
sometimes I feel like the rat that just does not.
sure I could attempt to find what ever the purpose of the maze is only to find the solution, and be brought back to the start, or just never start therefor never start the restart.
hmm.
its an interesting thing, living in this information age.
if you wanted to you could learn everything about anything.
but we seem to choose not to .
I could have the truth of all the secrets of the world, and not care.
well, im gonna lay down now, and stare at my wall for a bit.


merry Christmas to all and to all a good night.
happy hunting!

a warm place

last week of my first class, woot.
I also have my final exam due on thursday, unwoot.
I read this article on shading/tints and have been experimenting with that.
This pic came out kinda differently then I had originally started, (maybe I'll post that up , if I finish it)
I still like it though, I thought this song/instrumental fit this pic well
A Warm Place - Nine Inch Nails

waltzing matilda

I was listen to music and heard a song I've never heard before.
I put it on repeat and drew this pic.
The song is below (2x), And The Band Played Waltzing Matilda - Pogues cover, originally by Eric Bogle

The Pogues - And The band played waltzing matilda

When I was a young man I carried my pack
And I lived the free life of a rover
From the Murrays green basin to the dusty outback
I waltzed my Matilda all over
Then in nineteen fifteen my country said Son
It's time to stop rambling 'cause there's work to be done
So they gave me a tin hat and they gave me a gun
And they sent me away to the war
And the band played Waltzing Matilda
As we sailed away from the quay
And amidst all the tears and the shouts and the cheers
We sailed off to Gallipoli

How well I remember that terrible day
How the blood stained the sand and the water
And how in that hell that they called Suvla Bay
We were butchered like lambs at the slaughter
Johnny Turk he was ready, he primed himself well
He chased us with bullets, he rained us with shells
And in five minutes flat he'd blown us all to hell
Nearly blew us right back to Australia
But the band played Waltzing Matilda
As we stopped to bury our slain
We buried ours and the Turks buried theirs
Then we started all over again

Now those that were left, well we tried to survive
In a mad world of blood, death and fire
And for ten weary weeks I kept myself alive
But around me the corpses piled higher
Then a big Turkish shell knocked me arse over tit
And when I woke up in my hospital bed
And saw what it had done, I wished I was dead
Never knew there were worse things than dying
For no more I'll go waltzing Matilda
All around the green bush far and near
For to hump tent and pegs, a man needs two legs
No more waltzing Matilda for me

So they collected the cripples, the wounded, the maimed
And they shipped us back home to Australia
The armless, the legless, the blind, the insane
Those proud wounded heroes of Suvla
And as our ship pulled into Circular Quay
I looked at the place where my legs used to be
And thank Christ there was nobody waiting for me
To grieve and to mourn and to pity
And the band played Waltzing Matilda
As they carried us down the gangway
But nobody cheered, they just stood and stared
Then turned all their faces away

And now every April I sit on my porch
And I watch the parade pass before me
And I watch my old comrades, how proudly they march
Reliving old dreams of past glory
And the old men march slowly, all bent, stiff and sore
The forgotten heroes from a forgotten war
And the young people ask, "What are they marching for?"
And I ask myself the same question
And the band plays Waltzing Matilda
And the old men answer to the call
But year after year their numbers get fewer
Some day no one will march there at all

Waltzing Matilda, Waltzing Matilda
Who'll come a waltzing Matilda with me
And their ghosts may be heard as you pass the Billabong
Who'll come-a-waltzing Matilda with me?

day1

So i didnt get any sleep last night, and today I felt like crap, which may have been caused by the fact that I was at church all day.
but anyway.
The first thing I noticed was that my hearing had decreased.
This happened last week but I thought maybe I had eaten something strange the day before.
So my hearing has decreased, but more than that all the sounds coming in threw my right ear have this tin can echoing sound, its kinda annoying.
I have yet to see anything, but I was hearing voices when I would close my eyes.
Also I was really uncoordinated, but still able to drive safely.
hmm I dont think the day two is gonna work cause I fell asleep as soon as I got home,  which reminds me.
I need some food.

this will make the previous post make sense.

curtains.

King: One day lad. All this will be yours.
Prince: What? The curtains?

cow

i was listening to some music and this song came up,
so i started drawing. (above) (done by me)
(below)song (not done by me)


"No Lies, Just Love" - Bright Eyes, from the album " Don't Be Frightened Of Turning The Page"



It was in the march of the winter I turned 17
that I bought those pills
I thought I would need
and I wrote a letter to my family
said it's not your fault
and you've been good to me
just lately I've been feeling
like I don't belong
like the ground is not mine to walk upon
and I've heard that music
echo through the house
where my grandmother drank
by herself
and I sat watching a flower
as it was withering
I was embarrassed by it's honesty
so I'd prefer to be remembered as a smiling face
not this fucking wreck
that's taken it's place

so please forgive what I have done
no you can't stay mad at the setting sun
cause we all get tired I mean eventually
and there's nothing left to do but sleep

but spring came bearing sunlight
those persuasive rays
so I gave myself a few more days
my salvation it came, quite suddenly
when Justin spoke very plainly
he said "Of course it's your decision,
but just so you know,
if you decide to leave,
soon I will follow"

I wrote this for a baby
who has yet to be born
my brother's first child
I hope that womb's not too warm
cause it's cold out here
and it'll be quite a shock
to breathe this air
to discover loss
so I'd like to make some changes
before you arrive
so when your new eyes meet mine
they won't see no lies
just love.
just love.

I will be pure,
No, no, I know I will be pure.
Like snow- like gold-
like snow- like gold--

o ...yeah...

its friday, i thought it was tuesday.
I dont feel like going to sleep, but I dont want to be awake when everyone else wakes up.
...maybe I could try to stay awake for a few days, see how that goes.
I heard that if you stay awake for 3 days, then you start to hallucinate.
that might be fun.
-----
anyway.
here is a song thats cool, well not really cool.
more like, ......hmm.....

Agathodaimon (which means good spirit, i think these guys are german or finnish, i cant really remember)
Its from their album Chapter 3. which is a really awesome album, imo.
......I wish I could sing like these guys, well this guy.
even his name is freakin awesome, "Vlad", how much more of a badass name can you get.

.....
well, good ay to ya.


Agathodaimon - Past Shadows

Now far I am from you, before my fire alone,
And read again the hours that so silently have gone,
And it seems that eighty years beneath my feet did glide,
That I am old as winter, that maybe you have died.

The shadows of the past swift stream across life's floor
The tale of all times, nothings that now exist no more;
While the wind with clumsy fingers softly fumbles at the blind
And sadly spins the fiber of the story in my mind...

I see you stand before me in a mist that does enfold,
Your eyes are full of tears, and your fingers long and cold;
About my neck caressing your arms you gently ply
And it seems you want to speak to me yet only sigh.

And thus I clasp entranced my all, my world of grace,
And both our lives are joined in that supreme embrace...
Oh, let the voice of memory remain forever dumb,
Forget the joy that was, but that nevermore will come,
 
The shadows of the past swift stream across life's floor
The tale of all times, nothings that now exist no more;
While the wind with clumsy fingers softly fumbles at the blind
And sadly spins the fiber of the story in my mind... 


And thus I clasp entranced my all, my world of grace,
And both our lives are joined in that supreme embrace... 

Forget how after an instant you thrust my arms aside,
For now I'm old and lonely, and maybe you have died.

...and lightning bolts from his arse.

after posting this I remembered a short that I once saw on tv.
here it is.

Credits Roll

i should probably get some sleep,
but im not really tired right now..
hmm... I was thinking the other day, well maybe i've already said this,
but is it strange to not know what you want.
not like, at a restaurant and cant decide between smoked cheddar or pepper  jack.
or want clothes to wear.
but like not knowing what you want out of life.
examp: "I want to ........"
I could fill in survival instincts but....
anyway, maybe i'll find something to fill in the blank.

..///\\\///\\\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/

so I added another song.
0401,
which is featuring the creepy sounding kid from "credits roll". yey!!
and just a side not I wasnt purposely trying to studder, for some reason it just happened.
o yeah 0401, was the date when I made the backing track, today I added in the vocals and finished mixing.
HQ:

555

I .......
'm hungry.

4110

dear april 1st,
no one likes you.



have a good one.

bumbumdum

i was gonna try and write something witty here.
but couldnt think of anything.

so I thought i'd share the greatest thing on the internet.
its kinda old, but still very awesome

hugs and kisses

have a nice week

dogs and double cheese burgers

dogs and double cheese burgers from Marten Hernandez on Vimeo.
the good stuff.


i was messing around with Garage Band, and came up with this.

redline

redline - marten hernandez
Time.
Takes us away.
Life fades.
The every day, just seems the same.
Should I pray?
So things may stay the same.
So I sit, and wait and watch.
As time just slips away.
The dreams I have, never change.
Dreams of dying.
Dreams of pain.
Time stops again, to mock me.
This is my stop.
The train tells me so.
Last call it chimes, two minutes to go.
Excuse me sir.
I don’t recognize this place.
Have I been here before?
Or was there a mistake.
All aboard, all aboard he cries.
And all aboard.
We die.


-------
im not really singing in this one more like just talking.
I was thinking of that thing they have a jazz bars. The upright bass, and some person is reciting a poem.
well anyway, if you like it you could always, you know donate some $$$ to me.



cereal!!!
hmm.. it came out alittle blurry. 

ps. (answering question from last post.)
o yeah, most everthing I draw is digital. I mostly us cs4 photoshop and I have a walcom bamboo fun drawing pad. This drawing was just a quick test of a new program I just got, Autodesk Sketchbook Pro. I really want to learn how to drawn, like proportionally/consistently.

eek

I just thought of an old cartoon I used to watch.

eek the cat, ever heard of it?

well, good night all.

video games are amazing.

today I sat down at my computer at 1pm, and didnt notice the 8hrs that went by before I remembered to do my homework.
really its like your in a movie, that you control with your FINGERS!/ and some of your brain.
amazing.

.......

yeh, my life's pretty dang exciting.

ghandi knows how to game.

engrish

unmovated.

man........ 3rd week of school and ............cant get myself to do my assignments.
......anyone want to do them for me?
seriously.
i wish i had a clone that loved to go to school. and we somehow could share information telepathically.
.....one day, hopefully...


in other news,
I got back from a ski trip ...yesterday... I think.
that was......... hm...... hmmmmmmm.........
hmm..... well....not the greatest experience ever.

but some thing that was great;
getting a really awesome picture with really awesome people:

to sleep?

or not to sleep.

yeah i guess i should.

i think i might be psychosomatic, or maybe i just think to much.

(im not even sure if thats the right word.)

well, have a good one.

photobucket down

I was gonna put a pic here, but photobucket is currently down.

so instead i'll put up some music, I couldnt decide between two songs.

so here are both.

Priscilla Anh - Lullaby

Fear Factory - Invisible Wounds

Lullaby
Artist: Priscilla Ahn
Album: A Good Day

Lyrics

Here's a Lullaby
for anyone who wants to fly
from there home town
where people drown and where the town leaves die

This old library
has thrity books and one dictionary
but thats okay no one reads anyway we all watch tv

So heres your lullaby
no boy dont cry just rest your head and go to bed your time will come to fly
away
never a day just dream your life away
sleep...


All the dogs will die
they just cant seem to stay alive
cause in this town our cop shoots him down and we just let him go inside

Please God please what happened to our dreams
were loseing hope so we invest in dope to feel our vacant feelings

So heres your lullaby
no girl dont cry just rest your head and go to bed your time will come to fly
away

never a day just dream your life away
sleep...

"Invisible Wounds (Dark Bodies)"

dark bodies floating in darkness
no sign of light ever given
imprisoned in a world without a memory
unconscious, or am i conscious?
cut from the heart i am part of
sometimes i feel as though i'm frozen in heaven

and i saw my own face in the dark and lonliness
and i saw my own face like a spark frozen in heaven

in dreams i see myself flying
closer to the sun, and i'm climbing
tried to touch the sun
but the brightness burned my eyes
unconscious, or am i conscious?
fell from the sky like a star
sometimes i feel as though i'm frozen in heaven

and i saw my own face in the dark and lonliness
and i saw my own face like a spark

dark
my life was so dark...
my mind was so dark...
everything was dark

unconscious, or am i conscious?
fell from the sky like a star
sometimes i feel as though i'm frozen in heaven

and i saw my own face in the dark and lonliness
and i saw my own face like a spark frozen in heaven
dark bodies floating in darkness...