subtle extremist

my eyes have been feeling very heavy this past week.
I feel tired all day.
I'm waking up around 7-8am.
but when I wake up feel like I havnt had any sleep at all.
so this made me think. Why?
and I came to the conclusion:
I'm a subtle extremist.
I find that what ever I do, I do with all my being.
And when I'm given a job/responsibility that is over my ability.
I burn out really quick and crash like a great blue whale falling from the sky.
*splat
but most of this is all mental.
I find that there are different types of extremists.

The Emotional Extremists:
People who depending on their mood are either:
On cloud nine/hallucinogens or in the bottom depths of hell, and they make sure that the entire world around them is aware of this.

The Physchical Extremists:
Go all out all physically.
While playing sports, the soccer field to them is not a green box filled with friends and loved ones. But a war zone or death and blood, and the only way to survive is kill or be killed.

The Intellectual Extremists:
(I chose the term subtle because you cant really see the brain at work)
The Brain/Mind is going full nitro throttle, or crash and burn 100% of the time.
In this category the mind is either always on or not on at all.
When given a task the IE will focus totally on the task at hand, to the extent that all areas of living are also effected.
During the ON mode, the IE will feel great anxiety and be more easily agitated. The IE has trouble sleeping and organizing thoughts, for the task at hand has taken up a vast majority of the users brain space.
During OFF, the user experiences periods of zero productivity.
The mind has burnt out and needs time to recuperate.
This can last anywhere from days to weeks to months, possibly even years. (depending on the stress level of the task)


well anyway, if your not an extremists that's probably the best.

have a good day

taco bell.......why......

I was at a taco bell today for the first time in about 2 years.
Alot has changed.
They no longer sell Baja Chalupas.
the "fire" salsa is also no more.
a sad day indeed.


well


have


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good



day

Doesn't Make it Alright

Billy and his imaginary friend







The Special - Doesn't Make it Alright

Just because you're nobody
It doesn't mean that you're no good
Just because there's a reason
It doesn't mean it's understood

It doesn't make it alright
It doesn't make it alright
It's the worst excuse in the world
And it, it doesn't make it alright

Some people think they're really clever
To smash your head against the wall
Then they say "you got it my way"
They really think they know it all

It doesn't make it alright
It doesn't make it alright
It's the worst excuse in the world
And it, it doesn't make it alright

Just because you're a black boy
Just because you're a white
It doesn't mean you've got to hate him
It doesn't mean you've got to fight

It doesn't make it alright
It doesn't make it alright
It's the worst excuse in the world
And it, it doesn't make it alright

Just because you're nobody!

dearest june 1st,

i woke up around 8am a few days ago.
It was kinda interesting.
i had, like to much time.
I did my school stuff and had nothing to do..

today I had the awesome idea of riding a bike in my back yard.
that was fun.
i also realized that I currently have about 2mins of physical stamina.
thats bad... fyi
so then I took a shower.
I found a bottle that said bubble bath gel.
that was disappointing.
nothing like the image that comes to mind when someone says,
"bubble bath"
more like.....
well alot of things that dont live up to the expectations created in my brain/head/mind/inside of face place.


anyway, thats enough excitement for one post.

have a good (_____)