sleep, why u no fun?

i should be sleeping.
I've been falling asleep at school and work.
but when you are stressed out all day. sometimes sleep is no longer that fun.
it's nice to sleep, then wake up into a fun day, but with the weight of stress. it's not so enjoyable.


my wife really likes sleep.
"it's my favorite" - she says.
i guess we handle stress differently.

sometimes i wonder what would happen if everything just ended.
no current life no afterlife.
just nothingness.
life wouldn't really mean much.
goto school, work, make money, make kids that need to goto school to be able to work to make more kids.

but i guess it's about happiness.
providing a safe/stable environment for the ones you love.
what about people who don't have that?
that's how i felt when i was single.
what's the point of doing anything if i dont have a person to do those things for.

some times i wish i was already old.
dont need to work.
just hang out with my wife.
go to parks.
feed squirrels maybe ducks?

but i guess i feel like i'm working and going to school all day, so i cant spend time with the women i love.
so what's the point?
and when I am home, im all stressed out and grumpy.
hmm...


i got a ticket in dec, for being in a accident.
reason: "unsafe speed"
what bothers me about my ticket, is that there is no guideline on what that even means.
also that the officer told me what he was doing was "just procedure, for people who get into accidents"
it would be like if I was walking to my car, tripped, broke my hand, while laying on the floor in pain a police officer walks by and hands me a ticket.
thanks justice system.
i'm not sure what i'm supposed to take away from this situation.
i feel that laws are in place for the sake of it's citizens.
moral of the story: don't get into accidents. ever. or you will be charged and possible thrown in jail (for not paying ticket)


anyway. i'll add some music then go to sleep.





"I'm Not Yours" Lyrics

1, 2, 3, 4

Light me up a cigarette and put it in my mouth 
You're the only one that wants me around
And I can think of a thousand reasons why
I don't believe in you, I don't believe in you and I

Light me up a cigarette and put it in my mouth
You're the only one that wants me to die
And I can think of a thousand reasons why
I don't believe in you, I don't believe in you

I'm not yours anymore
I'm not yours anymore
No, I'm not yours anymore
I'm not yours anymore

Jump into your white mobile and run away
You're always leaving me behind
And I can think of a thousand reasons why
I don't believe in you, I don't believe in you and I

I'm not yours anymore
I'm not yours anymore
No, I, I'm not yours anymore
I'm not yours anymore

Light me up a cigarette and put it in my mouth
You;re the only one that wants me around
And I can think of a thousand reasons why
I don't believe in you, I don't believe in you and I















have a nice day

back

school is has come back to killme.

there is no escape.
only misery and sadness, and sleepless nights.



in other news, some music.



"Breezeblocks"

She may contain the urge to run away
But hold her down with soggy clothes and breezeblocks
Cetirizine your fever's gripped me again
Never kisses—all you ever send are full stops, la, la, la

Do you know where the wild things go?
They go along to take your honey, la, la, la
Break down, now weep,
Build up breakfast, now let's eat
My love, my love, love, love, la, la, la

Muscle to muscle and toe to toe
The fear has gripped me but here I go
My heart sinks as I jump up
Your hand grips hand as my eyes shut

Do you know where the wild things go?
They go along to take your honey, la, la, la
Break down, now sleep
Build up breakfast, now let's eat
My love my love, love, love

She bruises, coughs, she splutters pistol shots
Hold her down with soggy clothes and breezeblocks
She's morphine, queen of my vaccine
My love, my love, love, love, la, la, la

Muscle to muscle and toe to toe
The fear has gripped me but here I go
My heart sinks as I jump up
Your hand grips hand as my eyes shut

She may contain the urge to run away
But hold her down with soggy clothes and breezeblocks
Germolene, disinfect the scene
My love, my love, love, love
But please don't go, I love you so, my lovely

Please don't go, please don't go
I love you so, I love you so
Please don't go, please don't go
I love you so, I love you so
Please break my heart, hey

Please don't go, please don't go
I love you so, I love you so
Please don't go, please don't go
I love you so, I love you so
Please break my heart

Please don't go, I'll eat you whole
I love you so, I love you so, I love you so
Please don't go I'll eat you whole
I love you so, I love you so, I love you so, I love you so

I'll eat you whole
I love you so, I love you so
I'll eat you whole
I love you so, I love you so

I'll eat you whole
I love you so, I love you so
Please don't go, I'll eat you whole
I love you so, I love you so, I love you so
Please don't go, I'll eat you whole
I love you so, I love you so, I love you so

have a nice day