wallps

some wallpapers I made. I was trying out some new brushes, took about 5mins to make.
if you want wallpaper size pics download them here:
Flowers: http://fc02.deviantart.net/fs71/f/2009/351/e/8/flows_by_japaxs.jpg
Butts: http://fc07.deviantart.net/fs71/f/2009/351/4/4/butts_by_japaxs.jpg

3 libras

threw you the obvious and you flew

with it on your back, a name in your recollection,
thrown down among a million same.
difficult not to feel a little bit disappointed
and passed over
when i've looked right through
to see you naked and oblivious
and you don't see me.
but i threw you the obvious
just to see if there's more behind the eyes
of a fallen angel,
the eyes of a tragedy.
here i am expecting just a little bit
too much from the wounded.
but i see through it all
and see you.
so i threw you the obvious
to see what occurs behind the eyes of a fallen angel,
eyes of a tragedy.
oh well. apparently nothing.
you don't see me.
you don't see me at all.

3 Libras - A Perfect Circle
This is one of my favorite songs. I'm not really a tool/APC fan, but this song is just amazing.
To me its god saying how hes always here giving to us, but we ignore, neglect and just use/abuse him for our selves, and at times he wishes he could just give up.

pablito

pablito

youth die young

 a song I made today.
first one with words!!!
I was playing some chords and some words popped into my head, so I decided to try and record.
sorry for the bad sound quality, my recording stuff was acting weird.

it sounds alot better if you wear headphones. well maybe not alot better, but better than pc speakers.
and yes I know I cant sing.

also I wasnt sure how just add that song the other two are just instrumentals that I made a while ago. (souporman is really long 33mins, just a heads up since there is no timer or fast forward on the ilike player)

• Youth die young
• 3deadmen
• souporman

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circles

A few days ago I was drving for about an hour. Not really going anywhere. Just driving.
It was good though. I saw places in dallas I've never been to before, from ghetto factory places to really nice parks and houses. This led me to the conclusion:
I need to get out more.
Really.
Its strange honestly for the most part I dislike the world. (Borderline hate) But at times the world can be so peaceful and... nice. ---my mind just went blank---
...
..Well I guess, I've come to the conlusion that:
I think too much. And I convince myslef out of alot of things. I dont reget alot, its just sometimes I wonder about how things would turnout if I had taken the other road. (or something like that, there's always a choice and depending on the choices we make we go different places)
hmm...
Like school for instance. Well, I tell my self and others that im gonna go. But when I think about it, there is no emotional draw to school. I know its good, and its what is expected of me... but I need a more concrete answer than that. Why? "Because its good." .... yeah

....

hmm.....
maybe I need to get away.... go some where.... do something spontanious....and some how make money in the process. (like decent living money)

is it bad to not want to go outside?
to not care for people?
I think people are so amazing, but kind of in a scientist/lab specimin way. And I like, well I kinda like ppl as long as there not alot of them in one place at a time. 1-1, small group of 3-4. but more than that I start feeling cramped and I want to get somewhere open. Paranoid? maybe I've always thought I was alittle paraniod as a kid,  well I guess im still a kid.
hmm...
freeze time, that'd be nice.


sorry for the brain dumb, and pointless ramble/whinning. but sometimes it feels good.
yeah I also didnt spell check or read over what I just read, so sorry if it dosnt make sense. Maybe you can Mad Lib it through or something.

well have a good one.

idea

this was an idea for a story I wanted to do.
(also to practice drawing a character and to redraw it in differnt actions.)
it's based off of a sub story from the anime Clannad.
The story is about a girl who lives completely alone in a "world that had ended", she builds a doll to keep her company.

I really wish I could draw better, but maybe in the future (cause right now I still suck.)

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