circles

A few days ago I was drving for about an hour. Not really going anywhere. Just driving.
It was good though. I saw places in dallas I've never been to before, from ghetto factory places to really nice parks and houses. This led me to the conclusion:
I need to get out more.
Really.
Its strange honestly for the most part I dislike the world. (Borderline hate) But at times the world can be so peaceful and... nice. ---my mind just went blank---
...
..Well I guess, I've come to the conlusion that:
I think too much. And I convince myslef out of alot of things. I dont reget alot, its just sometimes I wonder about how things would turnout if I had taken the other road. (or something like that, there's always a choice and depending on the choices we make we go different places)
hmm...
Like school for instance. Well, I tell my self and others that im gonna go. But when I think about it, there is no emotional draw to school. I know its good, and its what is expected of me... but I need a more concrete answer than that. Why? "Because its good." .... yeah

....

hmm.....
maybe I need to get away.... go some where.... do something spontanious....and some how make money in the process. (like decent living money)

is it bad to not want to go outside?
to not care for people?
I think people are so amazing, but kind of in a scientist/lab specimin way. And I like, well I kinda like ppl as long as there not alot of them in one place at a time. 1-1, small group of 3-4. but more than that I start feeling cramped and I want to get somewhere open. Paranoid? maybe I've always thought I was alittle paraniod as a kid,  well I guess im still a kid.
hmm...
freeze time, that'd be nice.


sorry for the brain dumb, and pointless ramble/whinning. but sometimes it feels good.
yeah I also didnt spell check or read over what I just read, so sorry if it dosnt make sense. Maybe you can Mad Lib it through or something.

well have a good one.