there's something about mondays that I just hate.
maybe its the fact that its the beginning of a new week, a new week to be filled with nothing.
is it fear that drives this hate?
fear?
im I afraid of the nothingness that encompasses my daily life?
we exist to feel joy.
how does one find that joy?
read alot?
get smart?
make $$?
hmmm,
the thought "get away" comes to mind.
sounds like good advice.
but were would I go.
with all my trivial duties and obligations, can I ever get away?
I still find comfort in god, maybe I can stay with him fora awhile.
have an address?
i'd like to visit.
the pursuit of human life is to find joy/contentment.
energy cannot be produced with out both subject/object.
some sort of being to reciprocate.
i being human therefor need should reciporcae with other humans.
but for what?
is the whole point of life, death.
then what is the meaning of death?
to live?
i feel like a lab rat in a maze.
I know that for some reason i've been put inside of these zigg zaging walls.
so I could try and find the solution or just , not.
sometimes I feel like the rat that just does not.
sure I could attempt to find what ever the purpose of the maze is only to find the solution, and be brought back to the start, or just never start therefor never start the restart.
hmm.
its an interesting thing, living in this information age.
if you wanted to you could learn everything about anything.
but we seem to choose not to .
I could have the truth of all the secrets of the world, and not care.
well, im gonna lay down now, and stare at my wall for a bit.
merry Christmas to all and to all a good night.
happy hunting!
i think we learn way too many things that we don't need to know. like a lot of junk. but we seem to not choose to learn the truth, which is the hardest to take in.
ReplyDeletewe are just human beings, so tiny; the higher realm is out of our control; but it has its beauty of course.
temecula is a very nice place. you could come visit, but i dont really know how well you'd like it. it's mostly sunny. it wasnt today though.
ReplyDeletethere are lots of places to eat. lots and lots.
rats always remind me of psychology experiments now. they do lots of experiments with those guys.
you know like rats don't really have a purpose for existing you could say, but they always do what they have to to survive. its like they have nothing to live for but to just live, but they'll do anything they have to so they can keep on living. to us there doesn't seem to be a point but maybe to them there is one. wonder if they know something we don't.
i really like your drawings. i know i always tell you that. they're really neat. i wish sonja would put her drawings sometime. she did a portrait of you that was really really cool. you were playing guitar.
i hope your week has gotten better
well I'm not really having a bad week, I was just rambling, about random stuff on my mind.
ReplyDeletethanks though.
hmmm, temecula, how is that pronounced?
Tem - e - cu - la?
kinda like tarantula?
but the temec replacing the tarant?
"a man can fill his head with millions of facts and never be close to the truth" - some quotable old/dead guy.
when i left home for stf and then korea, my head cleared so much. idk, it's really nice to be alone and away sometimes in my opinion because your environment isn't influencing you to make decisions, or keeping you in some cycle.
ReplyDeletehaha but what kinda sucks about living in the information age is that i think one would have to be really smart and dedicated to really understand things, because we're fed so much bs and so much reality is censored.
yeah, i prefer to stay dumb and simple.
Complex life is a funny anomaly. Seriously, think about it. We a the only species on this planet and asks why it is even here; does gazelle grazing in the African Savannah stop and think as to why it is running away from a pride of lions? No, it doesn't. It appears that once we've taken the right to live for granted, we start asking why we're alive. Isn't that ironic.
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