tired

i realized something today.
i dont cope well with pressure.
im supposed to be running a winter camp this year.
camp? me? running?
i'm a techie i sit behind a desk or work behind the curtains.
i'm not a people person, but.
idk.

when the pressure hits, i just want to sleep.
forget about everything and just sleep.

hm...
2 1/2 weeks...
what im I doing?
what im I supposed to do?

dont fuck this up marten.

peace
love
sleep

have a nice day.



(hmm. thanks for listening)
(i miss you, alot)

im not strong, but you make me feel strong.
im not brave, but you make me feel brave.
im not warm, but you make me want to be.

love you.

this song reminds me of you.