sweater man

there was this kid in middle school who always wore the same sweater.
everyday.
I was always jealous of that kid.
he had it so easy.
"hmm... what am I going to wear today? HA! jk! I have my whole outfit set up for the rest of my middle school year" "pfff who needs alternating colors or designs."

yeah I wished i could do that.
but he beat me to it.
while he would have cool nicnames like: sweater guy, sweater kid, the sweater kid.
I'd be stuck with, poser sweater guy, Mr. latetotheparty sweater guy, it'saldreadybeendonebeforesoit'snotoriginalanymore sweater guy.
it was too late.

hmm..

I always find myself alot less driven during the spring semester. not sure why.
..


well I think that is all for now,
till next time.


I drank myself to sleep
Every night of last week
Then I walked to the Boscov's store
To buy a case of Crazy Horse

Then I dreamt I stayed in the Sterling
In the same bed as Kennedy
Then Jackie and Johnny and Caroline
Would ride up the mainline

Then the last stop's in Carbondale
Where John once found some German tale
And his Irish and German son
Wrote a story called "Killdragon"

It was a huge hit in the youth group scene
'Cuz it pledged, to all, celibacy

I saw him comin' (x4)

This year I'm gonna work on stability
This year I'm gonna try and keep my friends close to me
And I hope one day to have half as much of my grandpa's integrity
And I saw him comin'

I saw Kennedy in the hotel Sterling
And he told me everything that I knew we'd both been feeling
So we sat on the ledge and looked down toward the West

And that's where I drank myself to sleep
Just to get some company
That's where I drank myself to sleep
Just to get some company

(I saw him comin'...)

"jesus shot me in the head"

I heard people say "A man feels love when he is given responsibility" or "A man needs to be given responsibility to feel like a man."
I don't really agree with that statement.
For me it's the opposite, my ability to function and complete tasks decreases and I just tend to feel stressed. Even if  I am not doing those responsibilities, just the fact of having that weight is enough.
anyway.
Also I don't like the feeling of my actions being influenced by someone else. or my reason for doing something is simply because it was asked of me.
(it feels like someone is looking over your shoulder monitoring your actions)

I start feeling depressed, which I am pretty sure is not love.


I feel like i've hit a musical speed bump.
I can't seem to find an album that I like all the way through. Or even single songs that I really really connect to .

So internet, friends and that one random person from France. post me some of your favorite albums.






have a nice day

strawberry coca-cola

I had this dream last night where I was at a restaurant and people were fighting over the last few cans of strawberry coca-cola.

hmm. maybe new semester anxiety.






you breathe, you learn, you lose
you take, you break, you choose
and as you learn and cry
you do your best and try

and as the days go by
it makes you wonder why
you try so hard, so hard
to mend what's bound to fall apart

[Chorus]
ooh maybe it's time
to let it go
ooh maybe it's time
for taking it slow

ooh maybe it's time, time, time
for anything at all
time time time to let it all fall
where it may
[/Chorus]

and as the world goes on
you try to walk and sing along
and hope some things will stay
and every tune that you play

[Chorus]

ooh...
ooh...

and as your life goes on
you deal with what comes along
some friends, they come and stay
some leave and go their way

ooh...
ooh...


have a nice day

Saky's Finest

A depressing documentary about young-men trapped in a cycle of nothingness.