"I’ll be the first in the river and the last to swim"

I sometimes feel like I move slower than the rest of the world.
I constantly find myself wanting to do or say something after the moment to do so has already passed.
Maybe I just process things slower.
I know this effects my social ability. It's one of the reasons I dislike groups larger than 3 people.
It's just too much information happening at once.
It's also the reason I dislike shopping malls and walmart. Too much stuff going on at once.
Sensory overload.

I can hear myself saying, "I should have said that, I should have done this, I forgot to mention this, Why didn't I do that at the time"

anyway just some thoughts






Strand of Oaks - Last to Swim




I lost all my teeth last night
And held them in my hand
Cavity filled and crumbling
It happens more than I understand
Then I understand

So I put them in a velvet poach
Carried them to the flumes
That’s’ where I ‘m meeting you
We used the steam as ropes
And climbed with the hot air

We can see so much clearer
Up here

When all the mosquitoes
Are lying at my window
My kids don’t know how to read
I’m going to write you a letter
Saying all the cities problems
Are coming after me

When the Wyoming Valley caves in
I’ll be the first in the river and the last to swim...