quick brain / slow brain

quick brain / slow brain

I think similar to different personality types there are different brain processing types.
Or the speed at which something goes from though - idea - action

some brains are like car engines going down the highway. firing off in rapid succession.
smooth like smooth butter.

others are like "old faithful" (that geyser in that one park). it takes awhile, but eventually stuff comes out.
like...... a constipated.... old... person..

I definitely fall into the second category.
some times people will ask "Hey, how's it going?'
normal response: "great thanks"
"how are you"
(chatter chatter)

my response: "well........................................................................................................................................things............................are...................................................................................................good...............I..think............................yeah........................................."
other person: "please let go of my hand now"

I have now trained myself just say "doing good"
but in my head it's like "hmm... am I really doing good..........I wish I had some space to think this through."

There was one time during music class where the professor asked me what bands I like.
Normally, easy question.
but for me I was debating in my head things like:
does he want a modern band?
this is digital music production, maybe he wants the name of an electronic artist?
hmmmm..... what have I been listening to recently??????
knife party, yeah they are good, but do I like them enough to say that out loud????
but they are also not really a "band", he did ask for a band......
hmmm... there is that other band I like, but I don't really know the proper pronunciation of their name.
also only two members, maybe not a "band"
well more like one and a half members, yeah definitely not a band,

(at this point maybe a solid minute or more has past, the professor is standing waiting for an answer, I am standing, but I don't remember why I am also standing, I still haven't given an answer)
(a few more awkward seconds pass)
Prof: "you know what... nevermind. Anyone else have an band they like?"

thanks brain, you really pulled your weight on that one.



anyway just some thoughts.

bonnie prince billy -  i see a darkness



Well, you're my friend, (that's what you told me)
And can you see (what's inside of me)
Many times we've been out drinking
And many times we've shared our thoughts
But did you ever, ever notice, the kind of thoughts I got
Well you know I have a love, a love for everyone I know
And you know I have a drive to live I won't let go
But can you see it's opposition, comes arising up sometimes
That it's dreadful antiposition, comes blacking in my mind

And then I see a darkness
And then I see a darkness
And then I see a darkness
And then I see a darkness
And did you know how much I love you
Is a hope that somehow you, you
Can save me from this darkness

Well I hope that someday buddy
We have peace in our lives
Together or apart
Alone or with our wives
And we can stop our whoring
And pull the smiles inside
And light it up forever
And never go to sleep
My best unbeaten brother
This isn't all I see

Oh no, I see a darkness
Oh no, I see a darkness
Oh no, I see a darkness
Oh no, I see a darkness
And did you know how much I love you
Is a hope that somehow you, you
Can save me from this darkness