8pm crisis

my brain just forgot how to spell minute.
I was trying to type "sorry this is last minute"; when I looked at the word and couldn't figure out if it was right or not.
I can't wrap my head around it.
minute. that just doesn't seemed to be spelled correctly.
I've been google ever combination of minute, but none of them look right.

 is minute (min-nut) and minute (my-nute) the same things. Like 1 minute and a minute sample?
I feel very confused.

anyway.
till next time

"In a jar try to catch try and catch it"

sleep is getting better, had 2 nights of sleep were I didn't wake up.
maybe this is similar to what's it's like to have a kid(baby).
at least that one of the main things I  hear: "Prepare to never sleep"

anyway it's friday *clap* *enthusiastic cheers*
so that's good.



Typhoon - Possible Deaths



Every star is a possible death
We gave 'em names
We called 'em Cancers
Called 'em accidents

The one that's like a vulture circlin' my head
It burned out five-hundred-million years before I saw it (x2)
It burned out five-hundred-million years before I ever saw it
(before I ever saw it) (x2)

Count down the time that you have left
In a jar try to catch try and capture it
Count down the time that you have left
In the dark try to catch try and capture it
Count down the time that you have left
In a jar try to catch try and capture it
Count down the time that you have left

uploading complete

sounds at 3am

here is a recording from yesterday's early morning recording.
Not anything exciting, but I found it to be pretty relaxing.
(link is updating till then enjoy this awesome mashup)


The Final Teen Spirit:

"Time is too early, my hair isn't curly. I wish I was home and tucked away"

so i'm not sleeping again.
I'm not sure why, but it's happening.
I think it may be related to school though, this happened around the same time last year.
or maybe it's the changing of the seasons.
any way.
I've been waking up around 3-4am the past few days.
1st night  I woke up at 3:30am. Tossed and trued till 6am (when my alarm rings)
2nd night woke up 3:30am. but decided not to stay in bed. sat on my porch and recorded some sounds for about an hour. finished setting up a tablet I have purchased recently. Restroomed. Played some video games. Hooked up controller, played video game in bed. Feeling sleepy around 6am (laid down, woke up at 7am)
3rd night. Woke up 2:30. Tossed/turned till 4am. Fell asleep at some point woke up again at 5:20am. Stared at clock till 6am. (alarm)

I feel okay. kinda.
I feel wobbly. like the ground is a water bed.
reaction times seem slower.
misspelled words increasing.
difficulty focus
not really hungry
hazy
forgetting more stuff
when I first got up it felt like I was watching my self through someone else's eyes. Like in a movie or video game. That went away for the most part, but sometimes it still feels like that.

I'll try to upload the recordings soon.

till then here is something:
I really liked this live performance, so I got the album.
but unfortunately the feeling is not the same.
The energy seems absent on the studio album.
or maybe I just like watching the keyboardist.
anyway give it a listen if you are curious
Painted Palms: Performance on KEXP

"I had seven faces. Thought I knew which one to wear"

I didn't realize it till today, but I think I have new pet peeve:

People who look for validation from others to react. 

In class today the guy sitting next to me would do this thing where every time someone said something funny he would turn to me, almost as if to check if it's okay for him to laugh.

Like: (something funny happens) "Guy starts to laugh, checks his left (that's where i'm sitting) checks his right (rest of class) "are people laughing"....scanning....scanning....scanning.............YES...... "starts to laugh"

He kept during this all throughout class. I thought if I moved out of his peripheral vision he would stop. So I scooted my chair back and leaned into the seat out of rang of his scanning eyes.
My mistake, I forgot his head could turn. He found me once again. Looking for validation. "None here Mr.insecure man, please look elsewhere." I said.....in my head.


anyway.

just some thoughts. 

Interpol - NYC

I had seven faces
Thought I knew which one to wear
But I'm sick of spending these lonely nights
Training myself not to care
The subway is a porno
The pavements they are a mess
I know you've supported me for a long time
Somehow I'm not impressed
But

[Chorus]

New York cares
(Got to be some more change in my life)

The subway she is a porno
And the pavements they are a mess
I know you've supported me for a long time
Somehow I'm not impressed

It is up to me now, turn on the bright lights

"She gives me quarters for the phone. And every time I feel alone I go broke"

song for Tuesday

Dan Mangan - You Silly Git

She says the joys of life are lost among the living
So I guess all those souvenirs are for her health
She gives me quarters for the phone
And every time I feel alone I go broke
Yeah I go broke

She says if you're not here at least make sure you miss me
So when I miss her I make sure to let her know
It's the least that I could do
And sure I guess I like it too
I'm Mr. Charming without the charming

I can hear the eyebrows raise when I start singing
'Cause the songs I sing are all about myself
You can read me like a book
I'm not as clever as I look

I've got a sneaky kind of selfish
That I keep upon the shelf
With jars of double-sided comments
For people who've done nothing wrong

Preparing for the lights
And always practicing my sha-na-nas
I will stand right next to giants
And roar aside the lions

Wondering how is it so easy
For leaves amid the breeze to blow
From hometowns all around us
To hometowns where nobody lives

Just cities full of people
People making people making people
For the masses
People we won't ever know

She says the point of this is not to date the future
So just focus on the task at hand
Try to break up with your pride
And start to flirt with satisfied